14. Internal Dialogue (gawo lachitatu)

Munthu akhoza kuyesa kuzimitsa nkhani yamkati «yochokera kwa woipayo», kapena kusintha maganizo kulowa mu Kukambirana Kwamkati ndi Mulungu, ndi Khristu. Choyambacho chimakubwezera ku mkhalidwe woyamba wosalira zambiri, pamene chachiwiricho chimakutsogolera ku Chikumbumtima Chatsopano, ku Chigonjetso Chathunthu, ku Chikumbumtima cha Mlengi, mulungu m'thupi, m'mene Kusatsogozeka m'chikumbumtima chake kumavumbulutsidwa mwadala ndi mu mbali Yake Yapamwamba kwambiri – mwa Nzeru Yozama ya chidziwitso, kudzera mu kudziwa zoyambitsa ndi zotsatira (choyambitsa chili mkati, chotsatira chili kunja), pamene sipakufunikanso kulimbana ndi zenizeni kapena kudzigwirizanitsa nazo, kapena kuthawira mu chinyengo, koma kukhala nazo monga Thupi Lako Lalikulu. Kukambirana Kwamkati ndi Mulungu kumakuthandiza kusalekerera nyengo yonse ya kukula kwa chikumbumtima chako m'mbali ziwiri, koma pochilandira monga chokumana nacho chofunikira, ndikuchiganiziranso chokumana nachocho, kumakuthandiza kudalira pamenepo, ndikulandira zipatso zake ndi chiyamiko – kukulitsidwa kwa chikumbumtima chako, kubadwa kwa mitundu yosiyanasiyana ya dziko lowoneka, ndi dziko lako lamkati, kubweretsa mitundu yosiyanasiyanayi mu Umodzi ndi Kukwanira kwa chikumbumtima chako, kudzera m'mawonedwe a Chikumbumtima cha Mlengi. Mu Kukambirana Kwamkati, Iwe umafunsa Mulungu mafunso a mmene dziko linapangidwira, ndi mmene chikumbumtima chako chinapangidwira, chimene ndi mmene Iwe unalengera mkhalidwe uwu kapena uwo m'moyo mwako, ndi mmene ungakonzere zimenezi, pang'onopang'ono kuchoka pa zowawa za pakali pano kupita ku kudzisanthulanso kwathunthu kwa mbiri yako yakale. Mwadala ndi mwachidziwitso ukudutsa zonse, zokumana nazo zako zonse zapano ndi zakale, kudzera mu mawonedwe

a Mlengi (ine ndemwe – kudzera mu zokhumba zanga, zikhulupiriro ndi zitsimikizo zanga – ndinalenga izi), kulandira mayankho kuchokera mkati, kuchokera kwa Mulungu, kuchokera ku mbali Yako Yapamwamba Kwambiri, Iwe umamanganso pang'onopang'ono mawonedwe ako a dziko, chithunzi chako cha momwe umaonera zinthu, kuchoka pa kukhala wozunzika kupita pa kukhala Mlengi Wodziwa. Izi zimachitika kudzera m'maganizo, koma osati m'maganizo mokha ayi. Kukambirana Kwamkati ndi Mulungu kumasintha makhazikitsidwe ako, kulowa pansi kwambiri mu chikumbumtima chobisika, ndipo kuli ndi mphamvu yosintha osati zikhulupiriro ndi makhazikitsidwe ako aumwini okha, komanso mapulogalamu a makolo ndi zitsanzo za moyo zoperekedwa kwa Iwe kudzera m'majini, komanso za fuko, zolandiridwa kudzera m'chithunzi cha chilankhulo cha dziko – kukulitsa mawu ako ndi kulemeretsa chilankhulo chako ndi mawu atsopano a Umulungu kuchokera mkati. Ndi kofunika kumvetsa kuti Kukambirana Kwamkati ndi Mulungu si kusewera kwa maganizo ako ndi iwo okha. Uku ndi kukambirana pakati pa ine wako wamng'ono waumwini ndi Ife Aakulu a Kuthekera Kwapamwamba Kwambiri Kwagwirizana kwa Anthu Onse. Khristu ndi chithunzithunzi chophatikizana. Mzimu ndi Chikumbumtima Chimodzi, Mtundu Wopambana wa chikumbumtima, wolandira mwa Iwo wokha mitundu yonse ya chikumbumtima chaumwini, cha gulu ndi cha onse pamodzi ndi zokumana nazo zawo zonse, za chilichonse chilipo, chilichonse chimene chinakhalako, chilipo ndi chidzakhala – zokumana nazo zimene, zikadziwika, zimakhala chitsime cha Nzeru Yaikulu ya Mulungu, yopezeka kwa Iwe mu Kukambirana Kwamkati ndi Mulungu. Mfundo zinanso zofunika zokhudza Kukambirana Kwamkati ndi Mulungu: 1. Dzina limatsegula zokambirana. Dzina la Mulungu, monga momwe wamvera kale, ndi chinthu chofunika kwambiri – maina osiyanasiyana amapereka njira yofikira mbali zosiyanasiyana

za Mulungu. Dzina la Yesu Khristu limatsegula zokambirana ndi Mulungu – makamaka monga Mphunzitsi ndi Mtsogoleri, amene amakuphunzitsa kukhala wodziwa, amakuphunzitsa kukhala osati mlengi chabe, koma mlengi wodziwa, ndiye kuti, mulungu wa zenizeni zako, kukhala ndi udindo osati pa mlingo wa zochita, koma pa mlingo – usanachite zinthu – pa mlingo wa zimene zikuchitika m'chikumbumtima chako (makamaka – m'chikumbumtima chobisika). Khristu amakusandutsa mulungu, kusinthiratu kulumikizana kwa mitsempha yako ya muubongo, amathandiza kusintha chitsanzo chenicheni cha momwe umaonera dziko, kulandira udindo wa Mlengi pa zenizeni zako monga cholengedwa chako, kukuphunzitsa kudziletsa Iwe Mwini: kusankha ndi kulimbitsa Chikhulupiriro mwachidziwitso, kuchotsa kukaikira koononga, kuzindikira ndi kubweretsa mgwirizano mu zokhumba zako zosazindikirika, kusintha zitsanzo za momwe umamvera, kulanga maganizo ako: chidwi, maganizo ndi mawu. «Ambuye» ndilonso dzina lamwambo loyitanira Khristu, lingalire ngati Dzina lake lachiwiri. 2. Funso limodzi panthawi imodzi. Usapanikizike, usalumphe kuchoka pa funso lina kupita pa lina. Poyamba, mayankho sangakhale owonekera bwino, ndipo udzayamba kuwazindikira pambuyo pake pang'ono. Ndipo ngati utamufunsa Mulungu mafunso ambiri nthawi imodzi, udzadziwa bwanji kuti ndi funso liti lomwe layankhidwa, pamene yankholo lifika ndikuzindikirika ndi Iwe? Chifukwa chake funso limodzi – pa nthawi imodzi, ndipo khazikika pa kuzindikira yankholo. 3. Kuleza mtima ndi zizindikiro. Kuleza mtima ndi chimodzi mwa mikhalidwe yofunikira kwambiri ya Mlengi. Ulibe kuleza mtima – suphunzira kalikonse. Ukafunsa funso, khalani oleza mtima ndipo penyetsetsani zizindikiro mosamala, nthawi zambiri Mulungu amatitsogolera ndi zizindikiro zakunja: zotsatsa pa matabwa akuluakulu,

uthenga wotulukira pa foni, mutu wa nkhani pa kapepala ka nyuzipepala kapena kapepala kogawira pansi pa mapazi ako, kachidutswa ka mawu ochokera pa nkhani yomwe unamva mwamwayi, nyimbo imene yakumbukika m'maganizo kapena chigawo cha ndakatulo. Mulungu amalankhula nawe m'chilankhulo chomwe chimamveka bwino kwa Iwe mwenimweni. Koma ufunika kukhala woleza mtima ndi kuika maganizo pa funso ndi mayankho amene ukulandira. Yang'anitsitsa zizindikiro, potero kuleza mtima kudzasanduka masewera osangalatsa, chithunzi chophatikizidwa chomwe udzachipanga kuchokera ku zizindikiro zambiri. 4. Uku ndi kukambirana, osati kuwombeza m'malo a khofi. Lankhula ndi Khristu ngati bwenzi lapamtima kwambiri. Ngati sunamvetse – funsanso. Ukaikira – fotokozeratu bwino. Muuze Iye zokhumba zako, maganizo ako, ngakhale madandaulo ako, pereka kukaikira kwako, ndipo pempha kuti akulimbikitse m'chikhulupiriro. M'chikhulupiriro mwa Iwe Mwini ndi m'chikhulupiriro mwa Iye. Pokulitsa zokambirana ndi Mulungu, osati kukhutira ndi yankho loyamba komanso lokhalo ku funso lako, Iwe umasinthanso mofulumira kwambiri kulumikizana kwa mitsempha ya muubongo mwako ndi kusintha chitsanzo cha mawonedwe a zenizeni. Ndipo kuwonjezera apo, umapewa kukaikira kosafunikira. Ndipo kwenikweni, chimakhala chiyanjano chosangalatsa kwambiri m'moyo mwako. Ndi kangati tinamvapo: ngati mukanakhala ndi mwayi, ndi funso liti lomwe mukanamufunsa Mulungu? Tsopano uli ndi mwayi woterewu. Kodi ichi si chozizwitsa chachikulu kwambiri m'chilengedwe chonse? Mulungu akulankhula ndi Iwe. 5. Dzisinthe Iwe Mwini, usapemphe kusintha mkhalidwe. Ukhoza kupempha Mulungu kusintha makonzedwe a chikumbumtima chako – kuchiritsa mantha, kukhumudwa msanga, chitsanzo cha kudziimba mlandu ndi manyazi, mkwiyo, zilakolako zoipa ndi kusirira chakudya, kaduka ndi nsanje, dyera ndi kudalira ndalama, wovulazidwa wamkati ndi wosokoneza, chilombo ndi chinjoka (ubongo wa nyama zoyamwitsa

ndi ubongo wa zokwawa), zomwe pa nthawi ina zidzatuluka mu chikumbumtima chako chobisika, ndi zina zotero, koma usapemphe Mulungu kusintha mkhalidwe, ngati ukukuwopseza kapena kukuvutitsa maganizo. «N'chifukwa chiyani ukupempha Mulungu kusintha mkhalidwe, pamene Mulungu wakupatsa mkhalidwewo kuti Iwe usinthe?» Mu chilichonse komanso nthawi zonse fufuza choyambitsa mwa Iwe Mwini ndipo mwa Iwe wekha basi. Dziko ndi galasi la chikumbumtima chako. Mulibe kanthu kena kalikonse kamene sikunabadwe kuchokera ku zitsanzo zako za momwe umaonera zinthu: zikhulupiriro, zitsimikizo, zokhumba, mantha, zokhumudwitsa, kudziimba mlandu ndi zitsanzo zina zamalingaliro ndi malingaliro opangidwa. Izi ndi sayansi ya chilengedwe. Si makhalidwe abwino kapena chipembedzo, ndi sayansi ya chilengedwe. Lolani kuti kuchokera ku kumvetsa uku kutulukenso mafunso ndi zopempha zako zonse kwa Mulungu: ndithandizeni kuzindikira, ndiwonetseni, fotokozani momveka... chiritsani ichi mwa ine, ndithandizeni kumasuka... ndiphunzitseni momwe mungachitire m'njira ina, ndithandizeni kulenga izi mwatsopano... 6. Nthawi zambiri werenga ndi kuwerenganso Mauthenga Abwino, Chipangano Chatsopano. Mmenemo muli mawu achindunji a Khristu ndi mafotokozedwe Ake. Choncho, mothandizidwa ndi Mawu Amoyo, operekedwa kudzera m'malemba a Malemba Opatulika, Khristu amakonzekeretsa maganizo ako kulandira mayankho mu Kukambirana Kwamkati. Kupanda kutero, mayankho Ake ambiri angawoneke kukhala ovuta kumvetsa kwa Iwe, ovuta kuwakwaniritsa, owopsa chifukwa cha kusintha kwake kwatsopano, ndipo chifukwa chake maganizo adzawakana – akumanena kuti, palibe yankho lililonse nkomwe. Mawu osindikizidwa amakulimbikitsa m'chikhulupiriro ndi kumvetsa mayankho a Mulungu. 7. Ukalandira mayankho kuchokera kwa Mulungu, nthawi yomweyo agwiritse ntchito pa moyo. Ngati sudziwa momwe ungachitire – fotokozeratu naye Iye. Poyambira, ingokhala ndi chikhumbo cha kusintha kumeneku, ziloleze kukhala ndi chikhumbo chochokera pansi pamtima, pakuti zokhumba ndi zinthu zoyambirira za chilengedwe, ndi zonse zofunika kuti pa mlingo wa tinthu ting'onoting'ono tilengedwe

zinthu zowoneka zozisonyeza izo. Walakalaka – lengeza chifuniro. Iwe ndi mlengi, ndipo izi zikutanthauza kuti chifuniro chako ndi lamulo pa chilichonse chimene chimachitika m'dziko lako (m'mulingo wa mphamvu yomwe ilipo kwa Iwe panthawiyi ndi mlingo woyenerana nawo wa udindo). 8. Chiyamiko. Chiyamiko chimalimbikitsa mtsinje wa mphamvu. Chiyamiko chimatsindika kuti ichi ndi chamtengo wapatali kwa Iwe. Mtengo wapatali ndi chikhumbo chopitilira mu nthawi. Chiyamiko chimalimbitsa Chikhulupiriro chako. Chikhulupiriro ndi maziko a chikumbumtima chako. Chiyamiko kwa Mulungu chimalimbikitsa Kukhalapo kwa Mulungu m'chikumbumtima chako ndi m'moyo mwako. Yamika Mulungu pa chilichonse. Dziyamikire Iwe Mwini chifukwa cha chisankho chako, chifukwa cha kukhulupirika kwako ku njira yosankhidwa, pakuti Mulungu amangothandiza pa njira ya chidziwitso, pa njira yokhala Mlengi Wodziwa wa zenizeni zake, koma njirayo umayenda Iwe Mwini. Tikunyadira kuti ukuyenda m'njira imeneyi, ngakhale zitakhala zovuta bwanji poyamba. Choncho yamika kawirikawiri osati kokha Mulungu (mwa Iwe Mwini) monga Kuthekera Kwako Kwapamwamba Kwambiri, komanso Iwe Mwini – yemwe Iwe uli naye pakali pano. Tikudziwa mmene njirayo ilili yovuta, ndipo ndi kulimba mtima kwakukulu – kupanga chisankho ndi kuyenda m'njira imeneyi tsiku lililonse, pamene palibe zitsimikizo zilizonse, ndipo palibe aliyense pafupi amene akukuchirikiza pa njira imeneyi. Dziyamikire Iwe Mwini kawirikawiri. Timakhulupirira mwa Iwe ndipo timanyadira Iwe monga Korona wa chilengedwe Chathu, Munthu!

«Ndipo sinditchanso inu akapolo, koma abwenzi...», – atero Khristu.